Friday, April 2, 2010

Gratitude List #1-8

"The other problem with all this swinging through the vines of thought, is that you are never where you are." You are always digging in the past or poking at the future, but rarely do you rest in this moment. It's something like the habit of my dear friend Susan, who-whenever she sees a beautiful place-exclaims in near panic, "It's so beautiful here! I want to come back here someday!" and it takes all of my persuasive powers to try and convince her that she is already here. If you're lookinkg for union with the divine, this kind of forward/backward whirling is a problem. There's a reason they call God a presence- because God is right here, right now. In the present is the only place to find Him, and now is the only time."

-Eat Pray Love by Elizabeth Gilbert.

I have been thinking about a post for some time now, and just couldn't get my thoughts into place to actually write it. Until tonight. I have been trying to finish the book 'Eat Pray Love' by Elizabeth Gilbert for some time now(try like 3 months actually)...and am slowly making headway. It never takes me this long to read a book and while I don't find that it is the absolute best book ever written, I for some reason feel the need to finish what I started...however long that may take me.

Tonight I read this part of the book where Elizabeth was talking about how her mind wanders constantly- how she thinks of what was, what used to be, what may come, all the what ifs possible, replaying her life and dreaming of the future. She says she has a hard time basically just being in the present. I think I find this hard a lot of the time. I'm constantly thinking in past or future tense- like missing the days of college, missing summer and freedom, missing breaks from school, missing friendships. Or future- wondering about jobs, moving, money, constantly wishing for more. I find it difficult to just enjoy the moment I am currently in. Part of this feeling is why I started the blog in the first place- learning to be happy where I am, find the beautiful where I am, and just find peace. Part of that I believe, is finding the everyday simple things in life that make it so incredible and blessed. Which brings me to the next part- while recently reading several things I ran across 1. an article on yahoo that listed 101 everyday pleasures- and it made me think about my own list. and then 2. a blog that talked about "gratitude lists" and finding 1000 things in life that you are blessed with/enjoy/love/etc. Things you are grateful for. So to combine all of this together...I'm going to make my own gratitidue list- 1000 things that make my life beautiful. And in this I hope to learn to enjoy the presense of God, not the before or after...but the right here, right now.

1. my sweet husband, and all he does for me.
2. my sweet puppy- because every morning she flops her ears, wags her tail, and lets me know she's glad to see me.
3. warm, sunny weather
4. daffodils
5. getting bridal shower invitation for my friend Tyler- because it makes me grateful for her friendship, that I get to be a part of her big day, and I just love weddings in general.
6. fresh fruit
7. holy week and the renewal it brings
8. finding a great church to go to- and a sermon that reminds me how passionately my God loves me.

thats all for now...hopefully each day I can post a few, and remind myself of all the blessings I have in life, and learn to enjoy being with God right where I am.

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