Monday, February 28, 2011

Early in the Morning….

As I crawled into bed last night, exhausted from the day, I found myself excited and thinking “I can’t wait to wake up tomorrow, and spend time with my Jesus.” So here we are, on Multitude Monday- giving thanks and finding our Joy in the Lord and the gifts that we simply cannot stop counting each day.

Monday 2/21/11

175. a heart for missions

176. Brooke Fraser’s album ‘Albertine’…incredible

177. finally finishing crazy love by Francis Chan!

178. “If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy…the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world.- CS Lewis

179. a day on the lake in the sun

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180. a three day weekend spent with my husband

181. the beauty of the heart of women who love Jesus

Tuesday 2/22/11

182. being an oncology nurse

183. being able to love on people in some of their most difficult moments

184. that chocolate ice cream can bring a smile to an emotional 82 year old with metastatic leukemia in her brain.

185. being affected and letting things I encounter each day change the way I live

Wednesday 2/23/11

186. being grateful

187. laughing

188. knowing that the Lord puts me exactly where I need to be each day

189. God’s Provision

190. being given the chance to LOVE people with all I have

191. seeing the beautiful way the Lord is transforming my heart

192. being consumed.

193. that the love of the Savior moves me to tears…and the sweetness of those moments

194. being silly with my husband

195. being reminded daily that this life is far too short and to spend it loving on people is what the Lord has called us to do

Thursday 2/24/11

196. the gift of time

197. learning patience…and to slow down

198. the preciousness of life

199. a heart that feels


201. frozen thin mint girl scout cookies

202. muddy paws

203. clean laundry

204. comfort food

205. stillness

Friday 2/25/11

206. the sun after the rain

207. birds chirping…signs of spring

208. remembering a morning in the Dominican Republic spent with my Savior


209. sleeping with a curled up pup snoring next to me…yes snoring!

210. spring breezes blowing through the house

211. the smells in the house that are so soothing

212. perfectly blue skies- I just can’t get enough of them. its like God is just smiling when they’re that pretty.

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213. warm sun on my skin

214. February 25, 2011….75 degrees outside.

215. knowing that He makes all things new…Rev 21:4

216. a handmade quilt

217. having my mothers heart, my fathers passion for life

218. that I’ve been adopted into the heavenly kingdom… (Come Thirsty- Max Lucado)

219. knowing that the absolute sweetest moments in the world are simple foretastes to what eternity with Christ will be. (Come Thirsty- Max Lucado

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Saturday 2/26/11

220. working with great girls

221. building relationships

222. seeing that God answers prayers an incredible way by surrounding me with women of faith- be they in Eastern NC, on a blog, at work, or in China ;)

223. He is so faithful, and feeds my spirit

224. grace

225. excitement

226. looking forward to my next early morning with Him

227. cuddling

228. celebrating my grandparents 67th wedding anniversary…..

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Sunday 2/27/11

229. Sunday

230. looking forward to multitude Mondays

231. long distance friendships that stand the test of time

232. a phone call to catch up

Saturday, February 26, 2011

67 years…

This is Annie Belle….

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and this is Lowell….

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I affectionately refer to them as Nana and Dandy- they are my mothers parents. Today on Saturday February 26, 2011. They are celebrating 67 years of marriage.

These pictures were taken on the day my marriage began…so I think it is so sweet to have the parallel of a marriage just starting and a marriage going 60+ years…

We almost lost my grandfather this past Thanksgiving when he had to have open heart surgery.

I am so very thankful we didn’t so he could be here today, with his wife of 67 years.

They have survived WWII, the Great Depression, September 11, the loss of twins and the births of my mother and aunt. Four grandbabies, Two great-grandbabies. They have traveled the world together to Europe, the Panama Canal, and so many more places. Their faces light up when they remember those days.

To think what they have experienced…together.

Happy 67th Wedding Anniversary to my Nana and Dandy- I love you both so very much.

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I need to be reminded of who I was
When I took my first steps out the door
All I said now follows me around
I'm reminded I'm not like that anymore

I uprooted and miles behind me
Are the faces and the home I love
You've brought to my attention
I'm slowly changing and becoming
What I wanted to stop

Isn't that just like a finite mind
Setting out with such righteous indignation
But now I'm at your feet
Could you look at me with some imagination

The bush before me, I slip my sandals off
I only stopped to look
In the depths of the sea, in the midst of a great storm
I run, I run from you

Isn't that just like a finite mind
Setting out with such righteous indignation
But now I'm at your feet
Could you look at me with some imagination

So remind me why you woke me up
And why you wake me every morn
The staff in my hand
Held in by your love
Just stay close, stay close

Because I know my own mind
I set out with righteous indignation
But when I'm at your feet
Please look at me with some imagination
With some imagination

Thursday, February 24, 2011

rainy day….muddy paws.

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this life is not my own

I feel like this week it has just been laid on my heart that this life I live, it is not my own. We have no say if it last 3 months or 83 years. We have absolutely no guarantees that we will see our children get married, or even have children. We are not promised our next breath. This is a harsh reality, something so hard to take in- but there is something so good for the soul when this truth speaks to us.

I need to be reminded constantly that I am not in charge here. I need to be reminded how blessed I am to have my health, a loving husband, and the air in my lungs.

This week John and I were faced with this reality, that we are not in control. We got word that one of our college friends, one of the sweetest women I know, tragically lost her husband. He was an ex-marine, and a firefighter. Best we can tell from the news reports, he had an episode of PTSD like no other, which resulted in him being shot and killed by an officer. His wife watched it all, as it took place in their front yard. He was 27. I am broken for her this week. I am broken that she watched her husband die, that after three years of marriage, she is now a widow. All I can think about is how scared she must have been, the sheer terror of the moment, thinking “this cannot be happening, this must be a dream.” And then the reality, that her husband was gone. They have released the 911 tapes, but I cannot bear to listen to her calling in telling what was happening. My heart breaks for her thinking of how she will move past this, rebuild. Will she ever not feel that pain? She will never have children with her husband, she will never celebrate another anniversary with him. This wrecks me.

I know I am an oncology nurse, and I deal with tough stuff daily. I deal with people facing their worst nightmare that their life will end much quicker than they ever anticipated. I see their fears as they realize the potential moments they may miss out on, as it all sinks in.

I thought about it yesterday while at work, why am I not more affected by these things I see- why do I not let it radically change the way I live my life? I am always wanting to get to the next step, rushing past the very beauty of now.

How arrogant of me to think that I actually have a say in what comes next.

It makes me want to life that much more, to love that much harder, and to let every moment of this precious life wash over me, consume me, and change me. Does my husband know I love him? Does my family know how precious they are to me? My life should be consumed by loving these people around me…before its too late….

He’ll wipe every tear from their eyes….the Enthroned continued, “Look, I am making everything new.” –Revelations 21:4 the message

Take your everyday, ordinary life- your sleeping, eating, going-to-work, and walking-around life- and place it as an offering before God. Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for Him. Don’t become too well adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll change from the inside out…The only accurate way to understand ourselves is by what God is and by what He does for us- not by what we are and what we do for Him. Proverbs 12:1-3 the message

Time is all we have, now, that which we never need to merely find enough of, but rather the gift we are given to make something of finding time’s impossible. We’ll have to be intentional and get down to just making time, something of it all invisible. Every hour has sixty jeweled minutes, no matter who you are, or how long you have. –Ann Voskamp

Time is what’s sacred, not a temple, a mount, a tablet were first deemed holy- but time. Right at creation, God blessed not a place or a thing, but a day, and made it holy. A whole string of moments. Time is always the most consecrated. –Ann Voskamp

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Monday, February 21, 2011

Multitude Monday

February 14, 2011
113. an easy day at work
114. coffee
115. a clear bone marrow biopsy
116. a patient with incredible faith
117. listening to hymns in a patient's room
118. valentines day
119. heart shaped candy
120. two women, officially in remission from their leukemia
121. a homecooked meal
122. fresh flowers and chocolate covered strawberries
123. sweet kisses
124. puppy kisses
125. surprises
126. my husband, and celebrating our 2nd valentines day
127. learning to love well

February 15, 2011
128. a long walk
129. a wagging tail
130. blue skies
131. John coming home early
132. having the windows open all day

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134. a long nap
135. Josie, laying in the sun
136. a husband that cooks dinner for me, even when I've been off all day
137. a husband that washes my car for me while I napped

February 17, 2011
138. a patient that tells me she loves me
139. a beautiful full moon on the way to work
140. a nurse that gives me comic relief
141. a funny moment with a patient
142. going to bed early

February 18, 2011
143. a comfy bed
144. holding a patients hand
145. nurses that help me when I'm swamped
146. lindor truffles
147. easing fears, and worries as a patient cries
148. knowing I make a difference
149. peace
150. a dinner date with my husband after a really hard day
151. a beautiful night sky

February 19, 2011
152. sleeping in
153. a clean house, all the windows open
154. a 70 degree day in February
155. a drive down by the lake
156. taking pictures
157. grilling out
158. a taste of spring

February 20, 2011
158. going to church
159. being surprised, and moved to tears during the service
160. Mwangaza Children's Choir
161. the most beautiful smiling faces
162. the faces of God
163. a facebook status that led to a great talk
164. the possiblity of going to africa in july
165. a peace about it, unlike when i thought about going to India
166. a hard conversation
167. an hour long concert of from the african childrens choir
168. "My God is Mighty to Save, He is Mighty to Save"
169. growing
170. tears of joy
171. the whispers of my Father
172. the pulls at my heart
173. child sponsorship
174. Uganda
175. African Renewal Ministries.

Sunday, February 20, 2011


This morning we went to church, and of course we arrived in the middle of the first song because for whatever reason it is impossible for us to leave on time....anyways. So I noticed right off that the sanctuary seemed packed, and there seemed to be a lot of clapping and excitement, especially from the far front corner, where I couldn't see. So as the praise band led, all of the sudden the people on stage started motioning, waving someone to come up and join them....

What happened next literally brought tears to my eyes.

About 20 of the most joyful faces, all dressed in native African dress, ran up on stage, singing, dancing, and just praising the Lord.

Our church is host to the Mwangaza African Children's Choir this week. These are children from Uganda, that sing and tour raising money for the orphans and needy in their home villages. And they are FULL of the love of our Lord. Here is what their website says about their choir...

Mwangaza Children’s Choir
An initiative of Africa Renewal Ministries

Mwangaza Children’s Choir is an inspiring group of hopeful and talented children, ages 8-12, who admirably represent the orphaned and poverty-stricken youth of Uganda. This year, the children come from the villages of Gaba, Buloba, Kawempe, and Bethany Village.

Based in Ggaba, Uganda, the choir tours as a ministry outreach of Africa Renewal Ministries to share a special message of hope through original Ugandan song and dance. In the process, the children seek to raise awareness of and resources for the churches, schools, orphanages, medical clinics and child sponsorships that have been established by Africa Renewal Ministries. Visit

Mwangaza is the Swahili word for “shining light.”

Mwangaza (pronounced m-wahn-GAH-zah) Children’s Choir is dedicated to sharing the Gospel of Jesus Christ through song, dance and testimony. To help bridge cultural and language barriers, the majority of each Mwangaza concert is performed in English.

The choir’s members – some of whom are orphans – come from diverse and often life-threatening pasts, but God has brought healing to their lives and has given them real hope for the future. As a result, they have blossomed in terms of their musical talent, personal character,maturity and spiritual life.

You can read more about the childrens choir at their website

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

valentines flowers

These are just a few shots I took of the flowers in my valentines bouquet that John gave me...the rose is actually a deep pink, but turns out red in some pictures. Love fresh flowers though!

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my first photo shoot…

This past weekend we went to Greenville, NC to visit with my sister, Becky and her boyfriend Tommy. Its no secret that an engagement and wedding are in the plans for these two…and I have been wanting to try my hand at taking photos of people. So as we walked around ECU’s campus I snapped a few of them….for the first go at this photography thing- I’m pretty proud of how they turned out! Here’s a few from our weekend….

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a pretty church steeple in downtown greenville

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pirate battle flag flying high at the football stadium

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being silly on the softball field- going back to our roots and days of nonstop softball! Smile

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so funny…

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Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Learning to Love…

Since the beginning of this year, I’ve really had it on my heart that the Lord was going to use this year to teach me what it means to truly love well. I’ve always thought of myself as a loving person- but there is a love that is so much deeper that God is stirring in me. I long to love people well…to love my husband with every thing I have, to love my parents well, to love my patients so well that it hurts. I want to live a life reflective of the most extravagant love I’ve ever known, and let people see Christ in me in the way that I love. As John and I start the next chapter of our life, and the potential of starting a family together, I think its fitting that the Lord is teaching me about love- so that I can be a wife and mother that raises a family rooted in the love of the Father. I’ve been reading the book Crazy Love by Francis Chan for it seems like 10 years…I’ve just leisurely ready my way through, letting it sink in. It may be a week or more before I pick it up again and read more, but that’s okay- its teaching me. I am constantly affected when I read a quote by Frederick Buechner in the book…it gives such a great image of what love should look like, and how we should love…

The love for equals is a human thing- of friend for friend, brother for brother. It is to love what is loving and lovely. The world smiles.

The love for the less fortunate is a beautiful thing- the love for those who suffer, for those who are poor, the sick, the failures, the unlovely. This is compassion, and it touches the heart of the world.

The love for the more fortunate is a rare thing- to love those who succeed where we fail, to rejoice without envy with those who rejoice, the love of the poor for the rich, of the black man for the white man. The world is always bewildered by its saints.

And then there is the love for the enemy- love or the one who does not love you but mocks, threatens, and inflicts pain. The tortured’s love for the torturer.

This is Gods love. It conquers the world.

Multitude Tuesday….again.

I promise its not that I’m a slack person and just need an extra day to get my thoughts together…it is just all I can do after working 12 hours sometimes to get myself in the shower and in bed! So here’s Multitude Tuesday, Second Edition. I hope you’ve all had a blessed week…and are finding God’s voice and grace in the smallest of things.

Wednesday 2/9/2011

71. orienting a new nurse and having her extra help for the day

72. coming home

73. the stars at 5:30am when I leave for work- reminding me that the Lord is working in the details of my day and way ahead of me as I go

74. watching Duke vs UNC basketball- and although I don’t pull for either team- I’m proud for our state

Thursday 2/10/11

75. sleeping in.

76. a sick day with green tea, tissues, and a cozy blanket on the couch

77. a dusting of snow on the ground when I woke up

78. kisses from Josie

79. a new blog that blesses me beyond belief

Friday 2/11/2011

80. the end of the week

81. valentines day shopping for John

82. dinner out with my husband

83. comfortable silence

84. a three year olds excitement

85. little feet jumping on the bed

86. reciting all the disney characters she’s going to see this week on vacation

87. family

88. snuggling

Saturday 2/12/2011

89. three hours in the car with my husband

90. a quick weekend road trip

91. visiting with my sister and her boyfriend

92. a beautiful day

93. walking around our college campus

94. the ting of bats hitting a ball, the rhythm of baseball.

95. memories of college, and falling in love

96. going to a college basketball game…and remembering it’s the whole reason I met my husband

97. remembering the beginning

98. old friendships

99. the comfort of that college town and the place it holds in my heart

100. 100 beautiful blessings

101. sweet memories

102. eastern nc…the air there is just better

Sunday 2/13/2011

103. feeling free

104. a happy soul

105. brunch

106. laughing

107. being silly with my sister no matter how old we get

108. beach music

109. Stand By Me- our song

110. the excitement of my puppy to see us when we got home

111. a wonderful weekend

112.crawling in to bed….happy.

…I came so they can have real and eternal life, more and better life than they ever dreamed of.

1 John 10:10 (the message)

Sunday, February 13, 2011


As the dew falls on the blade
You have touched all this fragile frame
And as a mother knows her baby's face
You know me, You know me

As the summer air within my chest
I have breathed You deep down into my breast
And as You know the hairs upon my head
Every thought and every word I've said
Every thought and every word I've said

Savior, You have known me as I am
Healer, You have known me as I was
As I will be in the morning, in the evening
You have known me, yeah, You know me

Oh, and as the exhilaration of autumn's bite
Oh, You have brought these tired bones to brilliant life
And as the swallow knows, she knows the sky
This is how it is with You and I
Oh, this is how it is with You and I

Savior, You have known me as I am
Healer, You have known me as I was
As I will be in the morning, in the evening
You have known me, yeah, You know me

From the fall of my heart to the resurrection of my soul
You know me, God, and You know my ways
In my rising and my sitting down
You see me as I am, oh, see me as I am

And as a lover knows his beloved's heart
All the shapes and curves of her even in the dark
Oh, You have formed one in my inward parts
And You know me, You know me, yes

Savior, You, You have known me as I am
Oh, healer, You have known me as I was
As I will be in the morning, in the evening
You have known

You have known me, in the morning, in the evening
You've known me, God
In the morning, in the evening You have known me
Yeah, You've know me

You have always known me
You know me, God, You have known me
You have always known my heart
-Audrey Assad "Known"

Friday, February 11, 2011


I recently stumbled upon this incredible website Its a website to feed the heart of the Christian woman and to just give a little pick me up in this crazy life. I started browsing the website this morning a little more in depth to learn more about the team that so graciously writes for the website, and fell more in love.

These woman have set their website up like a beach house...and that just speaks to my soul.... Although I live a few hours from the coast right now- it is the resting place for my heart. I feel like I can breathe easier, see and feel God more clearly and just be at peace when I have sand in between my toes, sun on my skin and a vast ocean to look at. And this is EXACTLY what the women at incourage want for their readers. A beach house. A place to kick up their sandy feet and just experience the closeness of God away from the everyday hustle and bustle.

Who ever thought I'd have my very own beach house here in the middle of North Carolina?

Thursday, February 10, 2011


Its almost here. Valentines day. The day of chocolates in heart shaped boxes, teddy bears, hallmark cards, and roses. John and I celebrate the day, we go to dinner, we buy each other something small. But all in all, its just a regular date night. And in the mix of this year and this change that is going on inside of me. I can't help but laugh a little at how commercialized this idea of "love" is. It is such a superficial, basic concept, but in reality it is so so so much more.

What is love?

Biblically, we can always turn to 1 Corinthians 13 to show us very specifically what real, true, unconditional love looks like.

"Love is patient and kind. Love is not jealous or boastful or proud or rude. It does not demand its own way. It is not irritable, and it keeps no record of being wronged. It does not rejoice about injustice but rejoices whenever the truth wins out. Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. Three things will last forever—faith, hope, and love—and the greatest of these is love.”

In the book Crazy Love by Francis Chan, he challenges us to put our name in place of the word love. Can I say that is how I live my life? Patient, Kind, not jealous, or proud. Am I always faithful, always hopeful?

Most of the time, I fall short, but it is a constant reminder and a great challenge to live my life full of love, learn to love people well- learn to love John completely and my family so so....well.

Thank goodness for the love of my savior, so that even when I fall short, He is there.

We love, because He first loved us. 1 John 4:19

words of wisdom from the today show....

Who'da thought you could get something deeper than the latest and greatest nail color from the Kathi Lee and Hoda show....

I love this morning show, and most days off its a guilty pleasure that gives me an hour of But today, I actually ended the show thinking about something that Hoda said. The discussion came up about Kim Kardashian tweeting the whole time she was pulled on stage with she wasn't truly in the moment...but rather living the moment through her cell phone.
How often does this happen in our technology obsessed world? We travel some place exotic and are too busy snapping photos to truly marvel in the place we are in. I'm guilty of this. I LOVE taking pictures. So half the time I see my vacation through a lense. But, I think its important in life to just sit and be, and take in the beauty of what is around us and the moments we are in, before they are over.

Enjoy the moment...enjoy the little things.

Today I'll be enjoying the little things from my tea, tissues, cough medicine, and the remote... and a little puppy snuggling :)

Happy Thursday!


Tuesday, February 8, 2011

she's heerrreeee!

thats right, she's here. all shiny and new and just waiting for me to learn how the heck to use her! after taking an interest in photography for a while now, John and I finally invested in a camera that could actually do something...more so than a point and shoot camera. so here she is...

a nikon d90....whoohooo!

and here's my model for today....

happy tuesday!

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