Wednesday, March 30, 2011

every blessing You pour out…

Its only Wednesday….but after the way Monday and Tuesday have gone, I want and need nothing more than to sit and be reminded of all the goodness that God faithfully pours into my life. If only I could have kept that mindset in the midst of all the frustrating and exhausting moments I’ve been put through- but…I am a work in progress, I am just clay, and He continues to mold me so delicately…and for that I am so grateful.


Monday 3/21/11


326. a good day at work (I clearly wrote that last week, as this Monday would have read completely different!)


327. the drive thru- and a quick dinner date with my husband sitting in our car eating dinner


328. having a warm cozy safe bed to crawl into each night (I know I’ve posted this before, but I am lately just so grateful for the security of my home)


329. the first full day of spring!



Tuesday 3/22/11


330. waking up with the windows open and the sounds of spring right outside


331. coffee 332. stillness


333. learning not to let the busyness of life overtake the time for the source of my life (Ann’s book ch 4)


334. learning to live full in every moment- having that John 10:10 life.


335. that the coming of spring is a tangible reminder of how He makes everything new again


336. white wispy clouds



Wednesday 3/23/11


337. a new car…a car that I will one day carry my babies to school, and practice, and who knows where else..



Thursday 3/24/11


338. for laughter throughout a busy day


339. knowing that even though we don’t understand why things happen, we are loved by a GOOD and GRACIOUS GOD.


340. for the lives that Brooke Edwards life is changing


341. an amazing dinner


342. snuggling



Friday 3/25/11


343. sunshine pouring in through the windows


344. the crispness of the air


345. warmth


346. this pen and paper that faithfully remind me


347. lunch with my parents



Saturday 3/26/11


348. a weekend away


349. a long nap on a cold cold day


350. spending time with my sister


351. a bond and love between us that has stood firm through distance and time away from each other


352. live music and a fun night


353. NC beach music



Sunday 3/27/11


354. a little moo-cow creamer (the way my mom always serves her creamer for coffee…and now I have my own to smile at every morning sitting on my counter) There’s a picture for any of you who are wondering what in the world I’m talking about…isn’t it just about the funniest thing in the world?


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355. the smell of a clean house


356. coming home


357. hugs and kisses from my niece




Yes, we should make the most of what God gives,


both the bounty and the capacity to enjoy it,


accepting what’s given and delighting in the work.


Its God’s gift!


God deals out joy in the present, the now.


Ecclesiastes 5:20 the msg



Tuesday, March 22, 2011

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a few pictures taken on a sunday drive with my dad...

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nail by nail…

Monday 3/14/11

293. a perfect rainy day off for recovering, snuggling, and spending time at home

294. posts and updates from friends across the world

295. for Japan

296. for the American Red Cross, Doctors Without Borders, etc

297. for putting it into perspective

Tuesday 3/15/11

298. for an understanding husband when I’m frustrated

299. the sweetest, most vivid dream ever…

300. music

Wednesday 3/16/11

301. for working with an incredible nursing student

302. for teaching, and learning continuously

303. for coworkers that are so generous to each other

304. sunsets- and the reminder of how great our God is and how faithful He is

305. John 3:16 on 3/16

Thursday 3/17/11

306. the power of God, another clean bone marrow biopsy at work

307. holding hands and giving hugs

308. St Patrick’s day fun on the unit

309. relationships- and that God made us relational human beings

Friday 3/18/11

310…for sitting outside in the morning, listening to the birds, having coffee, and spending sweet time with Jesus

311. perfect blue skies…one of my favorite things

312. sound sleep- a cure for exhaustion

313. “by His wounds, we are healed…”

Saturday 3/19/11

314. a date night at home

315. the peace in the morning

316. cool spring breezes

317. sleeping with the windows open

318. the safety in being able to do that and how I take it for granted

319. a yellow prop plane flying overhead

320. soaking in His goodness

321. ch 2 of a thousand gifts- I found myself wanting to underline, highlight, and circle every word

Sunday 3/20/11

322. Sunday morning church

323. knowing that in all things I walk with a God that is good

324. taking pictures with my dad- more later!

325. the country roads that I drive each day

Monday 3/21/11

326. a good day at work

327. cook-out drive through and a quick date with John

328. my cozy bed

329. the first full day of spring!!

If clinging to His goodness is the highest form of prayer, then this seeing His goodness with pen, with a shutter, with a word of thanks- these really are the most sacred acts concievable.

-Ann Voskamp


Saturday, March 19, 2011

Saturday

This morning I read chapter two in A Thousand Gifts, by Ann Voskamp- and let me just say I think I underlined, highlighted, or circled every single word she had to say…it was incredible…I can’t wait to read more tomorrow.

Here’s a couple of my favorite things Ann said…

“Gratitude for the seemingly insignificant- a seed- this plants the giant miracle. The miracle of eucharisteo… do not disdain the small. The whole of life, even the hard- is made up of miniature parts, and if I miss the infinitesimals, I miss the whole.”

“I know there is porr and hideous suffering, and I’ve seen the hungry and the guns that go to war. I have lived in pain, and my life can tell. I only deepen the wound of the world when I neglect to give thanks for early light dappled through leaves and the heavy perfume of wild roses in early July and the song of crickets on humid nights and the rivers that run and the stars that rise and the rain that falls and all the good things that a good God gives.”

And here’s the happy puppy I shared my morning with….

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Happy Saturday!

Friday, March 18, 2011

ingredients to a perfect evening

1. cute husband

2. cute cuddly puppy

3. 80 degree beautiful weather

4. bare feet

5. a grill, with shrimp and steak cooking

6. beach music, esp. Chairmen of the Board

7. a gorgeous moon.

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Can’t wait to bid winter farewell tomorrow (the official last day)!

friday morning thoughts…

This morning I’m outside on my deck, cup of coffee in hand…enjoying the warm sunshine and birds chirping and blue skies. It’s the first morning of the new year that I am able to spend outside without freezing. Its beautiful. I’m more aware this morning. I can feel the air in my lungs, I can feel the sun on my face, and I can see all that is beautiful around me. I’ve just started Ann Voskamp’s book A Thousand Gifts…I sit down, and turn to chapter two where I left off, and am not fully prepared for the magnitude. Its funny, because as I read her words I can hear my heart, and mind nodding and saying “YES, this is the battle I’ve been having internally, these are the thoughts I’ve been hearing in my head.”

Its no secret that I care for a dying population as a career. I spend my time at the hospital taking care of all ages of people, who have been given that news, that they have this nasty, ugly disease inside their body that they are not in control of. Their sufferings and trials have been the root of more thoughts and questions in my heart than I can think of. I’ve tried countless times to put myself in their position- insert myself into their story that has led them to this hospital bed where they now lay. I hear the news of the doctors, I see the shock and fear in their eyes and hear it in their voices- the whirlwind. The IV’s, the blood, the chemo, the nausea, the infection, the fevers, the tests, and more tests….the prognosis.

How would I handle being told that I have this disease for which there is no cure. (I hear the irony as I type those words…because I do have a disease for which there is no cure, Sin…ingratitude, doubt- so I am not entirely different). Most of the time these thoughts create a fear and urgency in me. I have to get going, I have to live, I have to see, I have to experience all this world has to offer…right this very second. So that if the day comes that I’m confined to a hospital bed, or my home or whatever it may be that confines me- I can say “that’s okay, I’ve crossed everything off my bucket list, I can go." How silly that sounds as I put it in writing.

I would hope that when the day comes I will smile and give thanks- just as Christ did in his last moments. Thank the Lord for the mornings I’ve experienced, the beauty I’ve seen, the love I’ve given and the love I’ve received. I would hope that I could say, I may never get to Africa- but I’ve see the face of God in North Carolina. I may never see another part of this world He’s created, but I’ve felt the sand between my toes here. I’ve felt the same sun on my face and I’ve see that same beautiful sky that those on the other side of the world see. I would give thanks.

We only enter into a full life if our faith gives thanks. -Ann Voskamp

If you haven’t read the book “Lover of My Soul” by Alan Wright- I encourage you to, it changed me. And one of the biggest things I remember is him saying that it is important to revisit the places you’ve seen and experienced Christ in your life, the same way you would take a trip down memory lane with your husband, to fall in love all over again. Its important to be thankful for all He has given and brought you through to fully appreciate and be grateful for where you are now. And its true. I sit here this morning and remember all that He has already given me, and I am so grateful- it is so much more than I could have imagined.

I see the reflection of my 24 year old hands in the computer screen as I sit here and I can see them when they are old, worn, wrinkled. And I picture hands that have lived, and praised the Lord for all that He so faithfully gives. For this air He so faithfully fills my lungs with each day, and for rich blood pumping through my body, and for this heart he created in me. For all that has already happened and for all that has yet to come in this life…I am so full.

I love than Ann points out that giving thanks preceded huge moments and miracles in the life of Christ. Thanksgiving fed the thousands with bread and fish, and thanksgiving raised Lazarus from the dead. Jesus gave thanks, and miracles happened, even the night before he was crucified. He gave thanks, and I was saved.

"Our very saving is associated with our gratitude" -Ann Voskamp

Give thanks go the Lord, for he is good, his love endures forever. Psalm 118: 1

I will not die but live, and will proclaim what the Lord has done Psalm 118: 17

I will give thanks , for you answered me; you have become my salvation. Psalm 118: 21

Monday, March 14, 2011

Happy 3rd Birthday Macy!

Meet Macy

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She’s my niece. And on Saturday she turned 3!

We had a great great day at the park grilling out and enjoying friends, family, and CAKE!

Here are some pictures of our fun…

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Happy Birthday Macy!

Love, Aunt Katie

“tell me three good things Katie…”

I have to tell you, for probably the past week or two I’ve smiled and silently giggled every time I sit down to continue my list of counting 1000 gifts. Not because I find it funny, or because it makes my heart smile (which it does)…no, this reason is different.

When I was in grade school, pretty much from elementary all the way through high school, I was bullied. I’ve never actually used that term for what happened, but looking back, that’s exactly what it was. Have you ever seen the movie mean girls? Well…that was me and my life. I, dare I say, was Lindsay Lohan (or her character…). I dealt with a lot of just pure meanness from other girls because I wasn’t the “it” girl, with the best clothes, car, or boyfriend. It was awful. I cried…a lot. And while eventually I became a part of Young Life and began to find my identity in Christ…it certainly was a long road getting there. I remember coming home, sitting down at the kitchen table and eating a snack and my mom would say “Katie, how was your day?”.

“Fine, mom.”

“What’d you do?”

“Nothing.”

Well tell me three good things that happened today, any three things as long as they are good…”

“Well, it was taco tuesday.”

“Okay good! That’s a start!”

“I got an A on a quiz”

“Great!”

“…and…” long pause because it was extremely difficult to come up with three things at that time for me apparently….”I got to come home?...”.

This was often what our conversations looked like…so many hard hard days coming home as a little girl just struggling to come up with three good things to tell my mom. THIS is what I smile and giggle at, because it is so so good to see that something that I once hated, dreaded, and I’m sure gave my mom a lot of eye-rollings over, has shaped me. The little girl who was coming up with three good things each day, is now a woman counting 1000 gifts….

so the journey continues...

Monday 3/7/11

260. being tired, but happy

261. asking for time off to go to Ghana (no answer yet…)

262. taking steps

Tuesday 3/8/11

263. seeing the Lord open doors for conversation at work

264. giving it up to Him, and the beauty in knowing that nothing is me, but Him through me

265. knowing nothing can separate me from the Love of God

266. peace

Wednesday 3/9/11

267. Ghana

268. Romans 8- it keeps showing up everywhere

269. Ash Wednesday

270. “Give us clean hands, give us pure hearts, let us not lift our souls to another…”

271. the testimony of a cancer patient

272. communion, and being anointed with ashes and oil, and knowing that it is the absolute closest I can come to Christ this side of heaven

Thursday 3/10/11

273. becoming a morning person, waking up early on my days off without an alarm clock (when I was a previous kid/adult that had no issues sleeping until 10 or 11!)

274. that Josie faithfully wakes me up around 7:30 each morning with her wet nose and wagging tail

275. for quietness

276. for the rain and wind, and knowing it is God

277. finishing “Come Thirsty” by Max Lucado (it was great!)

Friday 3/11/11

278. for fear, and the realization of how weak I truly am on my own

279. for the valleys, for they make the mountain so much sweeter

280. knowing I’m allowed an “off day”….that by grace, I don’t have to be perfect

Saturday 3/12/11

281. for a saturday morning with John and Josie

282. celebrating my niece’s 3rd birthday

283. a fun day at the park with family and friends

284. watching Macy go down the big slide…over and over and over again… hehehe

285. dinner with my parents, sister, and Tommy

286. learning from my dad

287. sharing the story above with my mom and seeing her smile

Sunday 3/13/11

288. that I didn’t over sleep for work b/c of daylight savings!

289. for help from other nurses when I walk into a scary situation at 7am at work

290. for a hug from a friend’s little girl at work

291. for being able to be thankful for what I experienced as a little girl, because in my opinion, it made that much stronger of a woman

292. a husband that cleans…while I snore :)

We continue to shout our praised even when we're hemmed with troubles, because we know how troubles can develop passionate patience in us, and how that patience in turn forges the tempered steel of virtue, keeping us alert for whatever God will do next. In alert expectancy such as this, we're never left shortchanged. Quite the contrary, we cna't round up enough containers to hold everything God generously pours into our lives through the Holy Spirit...

-Romans 5: 3-5

Thursday, March 10, 2011

thursday.

The big news of the Bible is not that you love God, but that God loves you,

not that you can know God but that God already knows you.

He tattooed your name on the palm of his hand.

His thoughts of you outnumber the sand on the shore.

You never leave his mind, escape his sight, flee his thoughts.

He sees the worst of you and loves you still.

Your sins of tomorrow and failings of the future will not surprise him, he sees them now.

Every day and deed of your life has passed before his eyes and calculated his decision.

He knows you better than you know you, and has reached his verdict.

He loves you still.

No discovery will disillusion him; no rebellion will dissuade him.

He loves you with an everlasting love.

-Max Lucado

“Come Thirsty”

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

being the clay…

I am nothing, yet He is everything through me.

I cannot do things on my own…I simply must give it up and let Him take control, trusting that He will be my provision.

This week I took huge steps in my walk with Christ. I’ll be honest, its scary. yet so beautiful.

Since I was in high school, I’ve known, in my core, that I was called to Africa. I didn’t know when or how or where exactly….but it has been laid on my heart, and simply won’t go away. I tried to push it away, there was always something else, something to come first. But God kept whispering, reminding me, calling me.

Last month when the African Children’s Choir came to our church, my heart was broken all over again for these people…I have to go….

….and the door opened.

….and the fears came….

How will I get nearly 3000 dollars? How will I get two weeks off of work? How will I spend 14 days away from John, who I haven’t spent more than a night or two away from since we got married? How? For weeks I set it aside, deeming it impossible. There’s no way. I can’t do it.

Well..I am right, aren’t I? I can’t do it. But He can.

And then that knock came…that pounding on my heart. Reminding me, whispering to me. “Go.”

So I took a step, a baby step. I asked for time off of work to go to Ghana, Africa in July. And even though that time hasn’t been approved yet, and the 3000.00 hasn’t magically appeared. God is working. He’s teaching me, reminding me that I am nothing but He is everything. It is only through Him that I will make it to Africa. It is only through Him that I will do this. I just have to let go, take the step and leave the fears behind. He’ll handle every small detail. He’ll hold my hand.

So please pray…

pray for time off work

pray for fearlessness

pray for peace to be away from John and for this experience to strengthen us beyond expectation

pray for the financials

pray for the people of Ghana

And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from His love. Death can’t, and life can’t. The angels can’t and the demons can’t. Our fears for today, our worries for tomorrow, and even the powers of hell can’t keep God’s love away. Whether we are high above the sky or in the deepest ocean, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:38-39

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You're breaking into my heart...and I'm letting You.

-Brooke Fraser




Tuesday, March 8, 2011

multitude monday

Sorry for my absence…I worked the end of last week, we left for a quick weekend getaway to see old friends, and I’ve been back about work since! So its Tuesday night, and I’m just now getting to this…but I haven’t stopped counting!

Monday 2/28/11

233. “we can’t round up enough containers to hold everything God generously pours into our lives through the Holy Spirit” –Romans 5:5 the message

234. for multitude mondays and counting 1000 gifts

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Tuesday 3/1/11

235. the first thunderstorm of spring

236. the safety of our home during a hail storm

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237. made from scratch cupcakes

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238. reading

Wednesday 3/2/11

239. a warm shower

240. a fun day of shopping with Jennifer

241. the excitement of her pregnancy and the anticipation of meeting baby Grayson sometime in April

242. fruit- namely grapes and strawberries –on sale!

243. for a friend and fellow pirate alum helping take care of my sweet husband’s speeding ticket!

244. photography

Thursday 3/3/11

245. the stars at 5:30am

246. the sunrise from the 9th floor of the hospital before I start my day

247. precepting a new nursing student

248. kisses

Friday 3/4/11

249. for fridays…and the end the week

Saturday 3/5/11

250. for riding in the car with my husband…and that he doesn’t get mad that I always fall asleep

251. lunch with friends from college that we don’t get to see nearly enough

252. college baseball

253. for aaron and sarah opening their home up to us for the weekend

254. feeling sarah’s baby girl kick

Sunday 3/6/11

255. cooking breakfast and bonding with a girlfriend in the kitchen

256. a quiet dock

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257. a baby shower to celebrate sarah and aarons baby girl

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(side note…yes I have two very close friends pregnant at the same time….something’s in the water apparently…)

258. a quick weekend away

259. a beautiful sunset on the way home from new bern

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and I ask Him that with both feet planted firmly on love, you’ll be able to take in with all Christians, the extravagant dimensions of Christ’s love. Reach out and experience the breadth, test its length, plumb its depths, rise to the heights! Live full lives, full in the fullness of God. Ephesians 3:18-19 the message


Wednesday, March 2, 2011

first signs of spring…

playing with the macro lense today...


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they’re not perfect…but I’m learning :)

also changed up the blog look! needed a little spring in that too!

Scavenger Hunt Sunday

I found Ashley’s blog and can’t help but join her Scavenger Hunt Sunday crowd. I’m late…obviously… for last week but it just so happens I took a lot of pictures that fall under her categories for 2/27. So I’m posting on Wednesday….deal with it :) Some of these pictures…okay most of them have been posted already in my blog- but I’m reusing them just because I can!

1. Capture the Sky

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3. Furry

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4. Life

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snap dragon bloom…one of my favorite flowers.

5. Blurred

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my charm bracelet that John started for me in college…a K for me, a J for him, a stethoscope for when I became an RN, a pirate flag for our alma mater, ECU, and a cross…for the love of my Savior.


Hopefully next week I'll be on time :)

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