Wednesday, March 9, 2011

being the clay…

I am nothing, yet He is everything through me.

I cannot do things on my own…I simply must give it up and let Him take control, trusting that He will be my provision.

This week I took huge steps in my walk with Christ. I’ll be honest, its scary. yet so beautiful.

Since I was in high school, I’ve known, in my core, that I was called to Africa. I didn’t know when or how or where exactly….but it has been laid on my heart, and simply won’t go away. I tried to push it away, there was always something else, something to come first. But God kept whispering, reminding me, calling me.

Last month when the African Children’s Choir came to our church, my heart was broken all over again for these people…I have to go….

….and the door opened.

….and the fears came….

How will I get nearly 3000 dollars? How will I get two weeks off of work? How will I spend 14 days away from John, who I haven’t spent more than a night or two away from since we got married? How? For weeks I set it aside, deeming it impossible. There’s no way. I can’t do it.

Well..I am right, aren’t I? I can’t do it. But He can.

And then that knock came…that pounding on my heart. Reminding me, whispering to me. “Go.”

So I took a step, a baby step. I asked for time off of work to go to Ghana, Africa in July. And even though that time hasn’t been approved yet, and the 3000.00 hasn’t magically appeared. God is working. He’s teaching me, reminding me that I am nothing but He is everything. It is only through Him that I will make it to Africa. It is only through Him that I will do this. I just have to let go, take the step and leave the fears behind. He’ll handle every small detail. He’ll hold my hand.

So please pray…

pray for time off work

pray for fearlessness

pray for peace to be away from John and for this experience to strengthen us beyond expectation

pray for the financials

pray for the people of Ghana

And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from His love. Death can’t, and life can’t. The angels can’t and the demons can’t. Our fears for today, our worries for tomorrow, and even the powers of hell can’t keep God’s love away. Whether we are high above the sky or in the deepest ocean, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Romans 8:38-39

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You're breaking into my heart...and I'm letting You.

-Brooke Fraser




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