Monday, March 14, 2011

“tell me three good things Katie…”

I have to tell you, for probably the past week or two I’ve smiled and silently giggled every time I sit down to continue my list of counting 1000 gifts. Not because I find it funny, or because it makes my heart smile (which it does)…no, this reason is different.

When I was in grade school, pretty much from elementary all the way through high school, I was bullied. I’ve never actually used that term for what happened, but looking back, that’s exactly what it was. Have you ever seen the movie mean girls? Well…that was me and my life. I, dare I say, was Lindsay Lohan (or her character…). I dealt with a lot of just pure meanness from other girls because I wasn’t the “it” girl, with the best clothes, car, or boyfriend. It was awful. I cried…a lot. And while eventually I became a part of Young Life and began to find my identity in Christ…it certainly was a long road getting there. I remember coming home, sitting down at the kitchen table and eating a snack and my mom would say “Katie, how was your day?”.

“Fine, mom.”

“What’d you do?”

“Nothing.”

Well tell me three good things that happened today, any three things as long as they are good…”

“Well, it was taco tuesday.”

“Okay good! That’s a start!”

“I got an A on a quiz”

“Great!”

“…and…” long pause because it was extremely difficult to come up with three things at that time for me apparently….”I got to come home?...”.

This was often what our conversations looked like…so many hard hard days coming home as a little girl just struggling to come up with three good things to tell my mom. THIS is what I smile and giggle at, because it is so so good to see that something that I once hated, dreaded, and I’m sure gave my mom a lot of eye-rollings over, has shaped me. The little girl who was coming up with three good things each day, is now a woman counting 1000 gifts….

so the journey continues...

Monday 3/7/11

260. being tired, but happy

261. asking for time off to go to Ghana (no answer yet…)

262. taking steps

Tuesday 3/8/11

263. seeing the Lord open doors for conversation at work

264. giving it up to Him, and the beauty in knowing that nothing is me, but Him through me

265. knowing nothing can separate me from the Love of God

266. peace

Wednesday 3/9/11

267. Ghana

268. Romans 8- it keeps showing up everywhere

269. Ash Wednesday

270. “Give us clean hands, give us pure hearts, let us not lift our souls to another…”

271. the testimony of a cancer patient

272. communion, and being anointed with ashes and oil, and knowing that it is the absolute closest I can come to Christ this side of heaven

Thursday 3/10/11

273. becoming a morning person, waking up early on my days off without an alarm clock (when I was a previous kid/adult that had no issues sleeping until 10 or 11!)

274. that Josie faithfully wakes me up around 7:30 each morning with her wet nose and wagging tail

275. for quietness

276. for the rain and wind, and knowing it is God

277. finishing “Come Thirsty” by Max Lucado (it was great!)

Friday 3/11/11

278. for fear, and the realization of how weak I truly am on my own

279. for the valleys, for they make the mountain so much sweeter

280. knowing I’m allowed an “off day”….that by grace, I don’t have to be perfect

Saturday 3/12/11

281. for a saturday morning with John and Josie

282. celebrating my niece’s 3rd birthday

283. a fun day at the park with family and friends

284. watching Macy go down the big slide…over and over and over again… hehehe

285. dinner with my parents, sister, and Tommy

286. learning from my dad

287. sharing the story above with my mom and seeing her smile

Sunday 3/13/11

288. that I didn’t over sleep for work b/c of daylight savings!

289. for help from other nurses when I walk into a scary situation at 7am at work

290. for a hug from a friend’s little girl at work

291. for being able to be thankful for what I experienced as a little girl, because in my opinion, it made that much stronger of a woman

292. a husband that cleans…while I snore :)

We continue to shout our praised even when we're hemmed with troubles, because we know how troubles can develop passionate patience in us, and how that patience in turn forges the tempered steel of virtue, keeping us alert for whatever God will do next. In alert expectancy such as this, we're never left shortchanged. Quite the contrary, we cna't round up enough containers to hold everything God generously pours into our lives through the Holy Spirit...

-Romans 5: 3-5

5 comments:

  1. Amen to 272!!

    Thank you so much for sharing a portion of your story. I can only imagine the pain you must have experienced, as the teenage years are hard enough, but praise God for Young Life.

    I have so many friends who came to the Lord through YL. My best friend and her husband and international YL staff in Africa. They have been there for 3 years now and just recently adopted a little girl.

    Sorry for the long comment, but I just found it interesting. Have you ever done work crew or YL internship? You never know, you may have met some of my friends, as many of them were YL leaders in Kentucky.

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  2. I very well may have met some of your friends! One thing I've come to realize is just how small the YL world can be sometimes- its crazy! I spent a lot of time at Windy Gap, the camp in NC- but have met YL leaders from all over this country. I have friends that are on staff in Orlando- what part of FL are you in?
    Young Life was a huge huge part of my high school/college years...and I still keep in touch with my 1st YL leader who helped me get through a lot of those hard years. Its an incredible ministry.

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  3. I’m here from Ann’s today

    I hearted the story to begin things - And my fave from the list: of course - And yes God’s spirit is writing his law in her heart – but a good and godly mom is also vitally important. Clearly she has both at work (had to – it goes with the story :)

    God Bless and Keep

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  4. Thanks for stopping by my place! :D You're list was beautifully written and I love the Ephesians scripture from The Message in your sidebar. Very cool!

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  5. I got goosebumps and shivered a bit at #271. That will be on my next week's list, as I heard from a friend today that her cancer was back, yet she is ministering to other cancer patients in such a loving way.

    Your Mom was so wise! I don't think I ever thought about 3 good things in my school days. And they were hard for me, too. Isn't it great that we have a God who is so patient and keeps on sending us good things until we finally take notice and see them????

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