Monday, August 29, 2011


Well, Hurricane Irene has come and gone, but her aftermath is still hanging around. I thought I’d share a few pictures that were sent to me from my sister and her FIANCE (I’ll share that story soon…). Here’s the rundown of my eastern contacts. First off, John and I lived there for 4 years for college, and then he lived near the NC/SC border around Southport, NC for a few years after college. My sister is in Greenville, NC, her fiance, Tommy, lives in Swansboro (right where Irene made landfall), and Tommy’s parents are in Nags Head, NC.
Downtown Greenville, NC

Those two previous pics were Tommy’s parents backyard.
This is standing in Tommy’s Parent’s front yard. Their entire first floor of their house is flooded (it was finished in, unlike most beach houses that you park under the house).
Highway 12, Right near Rodanthe, NC. All residents of Hatteras Island can only access the “mainland” by private boat or emergency ferry until the road is fixed. The inlet  was not there Friday before Irene hit.
Another view of the Highway 12 damage in Rodanthe, NC.

Please keep Eastern NC and the entire East Coast in your prayers as they rebuild. The flooding damages are substantial for most and power is still out for thousands.

multitude monday

Good Monday Morning! I was slack last week and didn't post my list, so this is a double up post to get me back on track. I'll also be hopefully posting today sometime about Hurricane Irene and her aftermath, and some photos of the East that have been sent to me by friends and family. Thank goodness she is Gone!


754. a perfect moment...feeling free.
755. maxi dresses during pregnancy- ohhh they are heaven, comfy and they cover my chubby little feet!
756. a late blooming hydrangea

757. ordering Landon's crib- being blessed to have my mother in law pay for it for us.
758. a friendship hopefully mending
759. for triage RN's to call in the middle of the night
760. that the belly pain I had in the middle of the night went away and was not concerning.
761. for a family reunion- meeting part of John's extended family for the first time
762. for things getting easier on my heart....
763. a restful weekend
764. good sleep after a night of tossing and turning

765. for growing.
766. 3 days off to give this pregnant body some rest
767. for that sweet crib finally in Landon's room

768. for my sister in law- and finding out she is also having a baby boy.
769. that I am human- but Grace thankfully saves me from my ugliness.
770. for a quiet weekend at work
771. that my mom and mother in law can both sew!
772. chinese take out
773. patients that remain optimistic despite the bad news they continually get- I wish I had that trait in me and would learn from them.
774. for the 76year old man that still works everyday of his life and is fighting gastric cancer.
775. for God speaking.
776. for a wedding to sister is ENGAGED!!! :)
777. that everyone was safe during Irene and my sister's home didn't flood.

Friday, August 26, 2011

friday favorite and a little irene update

Today I'm sharing the absolute highlight of my week....we FINALLY got Landon's crib, and put it together! I love walking up the stairs and peering into that room and seeing a crib. I catch myself smiling everytime I pass it. The picture is a little grainy, it was taken on my iphone with instagram (which I am a newbie at, but LOVE...).

Isn't it pretty?! Now if I can just get my mom and mom-in-law working on that bedding! Hopefully this baby will have a place to sleep sometime before December 10th! :)

On another note...I know I posted yesterday at about Hurricane Irene, so I wanted to update you on the status of the storm and my family/friends at the coast. Most of them have moved inland, secured their boats and homes and left for "higher ground." The first clouds and showers are hitting the coast this morning, with more expected tonight and through tomorrow. Here is the risk that is run ANYTIME a storm comes near Greenville, NC (where my sister lives):
 The Tar River runs right near the campus, and the entire town and most of the eastern part of the state are extremely prone to flooding. I mean, even when there's a large storm or tropical storm it floods, and roads close, and homes are damaged. So for a Cat 2/3 storm to come through...they are looking at some major flooding.  Keep in mind this is the home of a major university with 35,000 students that all live right near the river so classes, and student housing will be affected on top of the residents living there.

I spoke with my sister this morning and she said that they are prepared to ride it out, they've stocked up on supplies and the grocery stores are madhouses right now. Her boyfriend, who lives in Swansboro, is leaving today and coming farther in land since he lives just a block or two off the beach.

Say a prayer and keep the coast in your thoughts this weekend as they prepare for Irene to hit hard! :)

Happy Friday!

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Today I am…

  • Ready for cooler fall weather, boots, sweaters, pashminas, pretty leaves, and pumpkin spice-ness...and being closer to December 10th.
  • Wishing that I could give things up to the Lord more willingly and not want so much control over my life. I wish I could trust that He is working and has me exactly where I'm supposed to be in life, and that no matter what He throws my way- I can handle it, and it builds character and strength.
  • Excited that we put together Landon's crib last night...and I am in LOVE with it.
  • Happy every time I feel those little kicks, because it means he is growing and moving and that makes my heart smile so stinking big....even when it feels like he is treating my bladder like a trampoline, practicing football kicks in my belly, or kicking at 1am when I need to sleep. :)
  • Proud of my husband- that he is so much stronger than I ever could be, and that he loves me in my prettiness, ugliness, and pregnant-ness. That he is mister fix-it and literally can do anything he sets his mind to. And proud of the father he will be to our son- I know our little boy is so blessed to have him as his daddy.
  • Realizing that I am not in control and that I am so weak. Realizing that God has to handle certain things in my life for me because there is NO way that I can do it.
  • Finally the idea that my sister in law is going to have a baby right after me...and we will have two little boys barely a month apart in age. Its hard for me- long story and I know its selfish...but I have had a hard time dealing with it.
  • Hungry all the stinkin time! This girl can't seem to eat enough right now! Which makes me wonder...exactly how big will my baby be by the time December rolls around? haha!
  • Looking forward to growing, becoming a mommy, having 12 weeks off with my son, the holidays, and everything this fall season will have to offer me and my growing family.
  • Thankful for health, for love, and for family. Even on days when its not so easy. I’m thankful that I’m human, and that I have God’s grace to get me through. I’m thankful that I don’t have to be perfect, because Lord knows I’m not.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

weather girl wednesday

What a week, and its only WEDNESDAY! I don't have much to say today except to say that prayers are needed for our beloved Outer Banks, NC. For those of you tracking Hurricane Irene, she's headed straight for our beautiful coastline and expected to strengthen to a catagory four hurricane. Ocracoke, where John and I spent our vacation just a few weeks ago, is already  being evacuated as the island is only accessable by ferry or private boat. Please send up a prayer for those living on the Outer Banks and Eastern North Carolina that damage will be minimal and that all will be safe during the impending storm this weekend. My sister, tons of friends, and family live in that part of the state and so we are all thinking of them and hoping they are getting out of Irene's path, ASAP!

In the mean time, Becky, my sister, has taken it upon her to become a local weather girl (not seriously), and sends me updates daily on the happenings in the eastern part of the is her message sent this morning.

"I'm tracking Irene but its too early for my forecast to be any-kind of accurate. Although, I will say, they have asked that we wrap our computers and cpu's in trash bags when we leave work on Friday. To be determined :)"

I find this hysterical. I had no idea trash bags were hurricane proof!

Second weather update- who else felt that earthquake yesterday?! A 5.9 hit in Virginia and was definitly felt in this part of the state. From the 9th floor of the hospital, I can tell you I was nervous!

Happy weather tracking.

Friday, August 19, 2011

friday favorite

Hey sweet bloggy friends. Today's FRIIIDAY and I hope you all are having a fabulous one so far. I am catching up on rest and sleep and doing absolutely nothing around the house today. These 12 hour shifts are starting to wear a preggo out, so my days off I have to recover. This morning I watched Kathi Lee and Hoda on the Today show, as I normally do. These ladies always crack me up, however today they made me just about CRY. Thats right, make a preggo cry...not so hard to do.

Hoda was talking about how she was able to be a part of Martina McBride's new music video "I'm Gonna Love You Through It," a song for cancer support. I haven't heard this song until this morning, and it is amazing. You all know I'm an oncology nurse- and I fully believe I take care of the strongest, most courageous patients in the world. Most of my patients are leukemia or lymphoma diagnosis, but I do take care of every other type as well. It is hard to watch them go through the toughest battle in their life, but so rewarding to be there with them and their families as well. I am so glad Martina (who I love), did a song to honor the survivors, and those battling cancer right now and LOVE this song. Here's the video, check it out, and love those around you, because life is so so precious.

Life is short but sweet for certain. -Dave Matthews Band

a post about beauty.

You know, when I first started this blog, I was inspired by a quote in the book Eat, Pray, Love by Elizabeth Gilbert. For those of you who know the book, you know it’s about a woman’s quest to find that beauty in life, that place, be it in food, love, or your spiritual self. I loved her whole reason for picking up and traveling the world, soaking it in, each and every aspect, and finding her beautiful. So it is funny to me that now, so long after that original post, I am writing yet again about beauty.


But this is a different kind of beauty, not in the world or what’s around me, but rather what is  IN me.

I’m getting to that point in my pregnancy when most days I struggle to find something to wear that is comfortable, appropriate, and doesn’t make me feel like I’m the size of a boat. I know you all understand where I’m coming from. Maternity clothes are frustrating and I am resisting buying any. On top of not wanting to feel like I’m wearing a muu-muu, I can’t stomach spending money on a dress or shirt that I won’t wear next year. I sometimes sit the fence between having that “I’m pregnant and I feel beautiful even if I can’t fit into my clothes that I love” and “I’m pregnant, I miss my waist, and miss being able to wear cute clothes.”

Today I set out in search for a couple pieces of clothing that made me just feel good. And while out shopping, I really got to thinking about beauty, and why we put so much pressure on ourselves to look a certain way or be a certain size or have the perfect body. It is something all women struggle with to some degree, and being pregnant has put it into a different light.

This is the first time in my life that I haven’t been well… “thin.” I hate to use that word, but I’ll be honest, I’ve never struggled with weight, so it is weird to all of the sudden be putting on the pounds. I am not saying that don’t love being pregnant. I am okay with gaining pregnancy weight, and I’m completely enjoying this process and the miracle that is occurring within me.. However, I am not perfect, and I have moments where I feel less than beautiful and insecurities rage.  I now understand a little bit more, how beauty is so outward in our society. And it saddens me.

Pregnancy has given me the opportunity to see that women are OBSESSED with weight. I am asked countless times how much weight I’ve gained, or given comments regarding my “size” or growing belly. Most of the time it doesn’t bother me, however I do think its sad that in a such a precious time as pregnancy, the world is still fixated on what we look like.

I think its time to revisit true, Christian, beauty. What our Lord sees beautiful versus what the world sees as beautiful is so different.

But the LORD said to Samuel, "Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart."
1 Samuel 16:7


Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.
Proverbs 31:3

I love the verse from Proverbs simply because it says beauty is fleeting. We put so much pressure on ourselves to have pretty hair, have a nice tan, be skinny, wear nice clothes, blah blah blah….but for what? It goes away at some point. It is temporary. But beauty from the LORD is permanent and forever. They are two totally different types of beauty. Have you ever met one of those women that you are just in awe of how much she is in love with Jesus, she is beautiful because she loves Jesus and you can see it radiating throughout her? I have. And I can tell you they were far more attractive than any supermodel or hollywood celebrity I’ve ever seen a picture of. Beauty from inside, from your spirit is what the Lord loves to see.

My prayer is that women can see what being beautiful is all about. That it is not a number on a scale, clothes, or any outward appearances. Rather, it is a woman with a heart hard after the Lord, seeking Him, and loving Him in all seasons of life, in all sizes of life, and in all ages of life.

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes.
Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God's sight.
1 Peter 3:3-4

Tuesday, August 16, 2011

a perfect moment

I leave work around 7 in the evening usually, so I know that  I miss most of the bad weather of the day. You know, the 100+ degree temps that creep into North Carolina in the middle of the summer. The days that bring humidity and no cool breezes and all us southern folk just searching for some air conditioning. So maybe this thought I'm about to share isn't completely accurate because I missed the heat of the day and walked out at 7pm.

BUT. Nevertheless, a magical thing happened last night when I stepped across the breezeway that connects our hospital to the parking deck. I rounded the corner where usually I feel like I am walking into a sauna, and was greeted with the most pleasant of breezes. Continuing on to my car, I hop in Lulu (the name I affectionately refer to my car), and the thermometer says it is a whopping 77 degrees. Wait. Did I read that right?! SEVENTY-SEVEN DEGREES?! It must be broken.

But wasn't.

So I spent a glorious 45 minutes coasting through the countryside with my windows down and sunroof open, music playing over Lulu's speakers, sunny-shades on, just happy. Maybe just maybe, fall is around the corner. And let me tell you, this tiny little glimpse of fall weather made me SO happy. It was one of those moments that just makes you feel free, and thankful, and blessed, all in one. And I found myself just smiling, riding home, soaking it in. Soaking in His goodness, and grace, and beauty all around. It was perfect.

Side note: another sign fall is here-ish....Football was on the tv when I walked in the door. Yep. My home will be run by football until January now. And to think I'm going to give birth to a that means even more football in the future. Whats a girl to do?

I just had to share my perfect moment, my moment of pure joy, and excitement. Is anyone else ready for fall and all things that come along with it?

..multitude monday..

August 8- August 14

743. my dad's 55th birthday- I am so blessed to call him dad and so thankful for all that he has instilled in me over the years.
744. a good OB visit, hearing that strong heartbeat that I love so much
745. for gaining weight (whoever thought they'd put THAT on a list?!)...because it means a growing baby boy.
746. evening walks around the neighborhood on nights that are a little bit cooler.
747. being called off of work, the blessing of getting to stay home one afternooon
748. two good days at work, being charge nurse and surviving!
749. for growing as a nurse, building confidence, strength and character
750. a weekend at home
751. going out to dinner for my dad's birthday (a few days after the fact)
752. seeing my parents excitement about Landon and being grandparents
753. church, peace for my soul.
754. a beautiful Sunday afternooon, grilling out, cooler weather, and naps.
755. the first teases of fall creeping into the weather (even if it is only a tease it is so nice!!)
756. that He brings peace to my spirit when needed, and reminds me again to just be still, and breath Him in.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

my weakness, His strength.

Here’s the funny thing that I learned about vacations. They’re not really vacations. We go on them, and expect them to "cure" us of our issues in life, to clear our heads, and to just…well…”vacate” ourselves from everyday life. And for 7 short days they are typically pretty successful in doing those things. While you’re away, life is better. Life has no worries. No work, no stress, no job problems, no family problems. Things seem perfect. Until you come home, and Monday morning rolls around, and you get your big ol dose of reality running at you full steam ahead.

For the past couple months I’ve been dealing with a lot of frustration and just pure anger sometimes towards some present situations in my life. And let me tell you, it has been SO stinking hard to deal with. I am normally a person that is very upbeat, positive, and can take the stones life throws at me in stride, knowing it is always temporary. However, in the past few months, God has thrown me some boulders, that I’m struggling to handle, struggling to see around, and struggling to get past. I felt great on vacation, and just like clockwork, our car pulled back into our driveway, and God brings me on back to reality.

Without getting into too much detail regarding my “situation,” I can tell you that there are several huge factors in my life that I feel need to change, yet are completely out of my control to change. For instance, my husband needs a new job. We both commute near an hour or so to work, in opposite directions, so there is no hope of us settling down in either location because they are so far apart. I want to have a home to call home for my child, and a church to call home for my family, and right now- neither can really happen because we have no “home.” We have a rent house, and we drive 30 minutes to a church we have been visiting for over a year, unsure of if we should make a commitment or not due to our uncertainty of where we will settle. It sounds silly, but after 4 years of college and constant moves during those 4 years, and now 2 years and 2 moves into our marriage...I'm ready to have a home....correction, I've BEEN ready for us to have a place to call home.

Then, there are some more deep, personal issues that struggle with. We live right down the road from my husbands family. My sister in law is expecting her 2nd child about six weeks after me, and let just say, I’ve had a hard time adjusting to everything. The ugly, selfish, unloving side of me has come out far more than I'd like it to. I feel terrible saying that, because I feel like I should be happy and loving and thankful. But sometimes, I feel frustrated, angry, and overwhelmed.

I constantly try to keep things in perspective, for instance with my husbands job, I am constantly thankful that we HAVE two incomes in our household, which is a blessing in the current economy. And a huge blessing for us since we DID experience a year of unemployment. I am thankful that we have loving family around us that would do just about anything for us and will be there for us while we welcome our baby into the world.  I know that in comparison to many people in this world I live a wealthy life, I have food and shelter and a safe place to lay my head, and that speaks volumes.
And then those ugly feelings creep back into my heart.

How do you get to a point of peace, when nothing in your life feels peaceful? How do you live out of grace and love when your at your core you feel like  a two year old having a tantrum on the floor, resisting what is going on around you? How do you love those that are so difficult to love?

I’m not sure, and I really don’t have all the answers as this is a battle I am sure I will not cure overnight and will continue to deal with. But, I know I am in His hands, I know He is at work in my life, in my husbands life, and in our child’s precious life. I know that if I am continually seeking Him, and asking Him to intervene, He will provide for my soul exactly what I need, when I need it.


Because of the extravagance of those revelations, and so I wouldn't get a big head, I was given the gift of a handicap to keep me in constant touch with my limitations. Satan's angel did his best to get me down; what he in fact did was push me to my knees. No danger then of walking around high and mighty! At first I didn't think of it as a gift, and begged God to remove it. Three times I did that, and then he told me,
   My grace is enough; it's all you need.
   My strength comes into its own in your weakness.
Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations in stride, and with good cheer, these limitations that cut me down to size—abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become.
2nd Corinthians 12:7-10 (The Message)

Tuesday, August 9, 2011

nursery madness

We are finally getting around to getting this house ready for our little man’s arrival. We only have 4 short months left! This weekend we painted Landon’s room a nice neutral beige color (we rent, so I didn’t want to go too crazy with paint color, so that we can paint over it when we move out). Hopefully this week we will order the crib and dresser so we can start on the bedding.

I don’t really care for theme nurseries- there’s nothing that I just LOVE enough to put it in my son’s room. The abundance of boats and trucks and frogs and monkeys just overwhelms me and so I decided to do a non-theme room for the little guy.

That was until I stumbled upon Rosenberry Rooms online.

For those of you who know John and I, we LOVE sports. We were heavily involved in college athletics while at East Carolina, beyond just attending events. Now, we are season ticket holders for football and try to make the trip down for several baseball games each year.

So I started contemplating a sports theme room. Not an East Carolina theme, as much as I love my pirates I don’t need purple, gold and pirates everywhere!

This is the source of my inspiration….

courtesy of

I LOVE this painting. I love the vintage scoreboard look, and love that it is sports without being baseballs and footballs galore.

So maybe we have  “theme” after all??

Monday, August 8, 2011

multitude monday

continuing to count…

743. for an easy transition back into working mode after being away.
744. for a new group of resident MD’s that are really good to work with
745. a rain soaked yard
746. some quality time with my Savior
746. a cool rainy day, perfect for cozy puppy snuggling and napping
747. 5 gallons of paint for free, SUCH  a blessing.
478. painting Landon’s room with John our first steps to making this house baby ready!
479. that He is faithful, that He provides happiness in weak moments
480. for continuing to hope in His plan for us. That at some point He will direct us and allow us to settle somewhere and make somewhere home. (we currently rent and both commute an hour in opposite directions…its amazing. not.)
481. that a little touch up paint goes a long way to making this rent house a little nicer
482. finding the perfect decorations for Landon’s room
483. knowing that in 4 short months I will have my baby in my arms, and all these crazy worries I have won’t really matter
484. for my Father. That even in my weakest times, I can trust that He is still working at something far bigger than I planned.

Happy Monday!

Thursday, August 4, 2011

coming home

We’re officially home from our vacation to Ocracoke, (insert big pouty face here). I've made it through two long 12 hour shifts back at the hospital, (insert SUPER pouty face here).

 Isn’t it true that just about the time you really get into vacation mode, its time to pack up and head back to the real world? We had an amazing time, a week I am truly so thankful to have considering its our last vacation without a little one in the house. I cherish these times with John, just the two of us. As excited as we are to become parents to our little boy, I am also trying to savor every moment we have until the little man makes his grand entrance to the world. It’s an odd balance between anticipating the future and planning and preparing, yet living in each moment and taking each day as it comes. Our vacation reminded me of that, and I am so, so thankful to have had a beautiful week at the coast with my husband.

Our week was full of sun, sand, and fun, but it was also full of mornings sleeping in, not picking up after ourselves, and flying by the seat of our pants. It. was. glorious. I was able to take Mr. Nikon along and catch some great shots of the coast, my favorite place ever. Here’s a few of my favorites.

The hubster and I at the Ocracoke Lighthouse.

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A channel marker, and sea oats swaying in the breeze.

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I shot these while John was doing some sound fishing at sunset…I love them, they’re probably my absolute favorites.

Silver Lake Harbor, Ocracoke

Another lighthouse view (I hate that the powerlines are in the shot…what can ya do?), and an Adirondack chair with a great view.

You can head over to my flickr page to see the rest of my shots from the week!

Wednesday, August 3, 2011

Guest Post Excitement

Hey sweet friends,

Hope you all have had a fabulous Wednesday. I'm posting this late in the day, but I am so excited to announce my first guest post! Head over to Amber's Articles  to read my post "You Need Only to Be Still." Amber, thanks SO much for the blessing and honor to be on your site today!


Monday, August 1, 2011

always here

He is in this moment.
The well is always here.
God is always here--- precisely because He does care.
-Ann Voskamp

multitude monday

I’m doubling up this week since last week I never posted my list, so forgive me if this one seems long! Hope you all have had a blessed week!

Monday 7/18-7/31
675. an empty room waiting to be prepared for baby Landon
676. red, ripe grape tomatoes and ranch dressing dip
677. time- no where to go, be or anything to do.
678. water on these hot summer days
679. cookie cake @ work celebrating my extern’s last day working with me
680. sweet patients to laugh and talk with throughout two days at work
681. getting to see the sweetest couple, and some of my favorite patients before I left work today
682. watching the strength of marriage in the couples as one battles leukemia and the other stands by their side
683. chick fil a for dinner
684. a safe landing for the last shuttle ever
685. our space program- the magnitude of what it has accomplished for this country
686. fresh picked peaches sent with love from South Carolina
687. the day of small things
688. 8 hours of traveling with my husband
690. driving NC 12 South and seeing water on both sides of us.
691. a ferry ride, the final leg to getting there.
692. salty air on my skin
693. lunch at one of our favorite places
694. the halfway mark- 20 weeks pregnant
695. traveling with my husband, realizing that next summer all this will include a baby!
696. a cute 1 bedroom cottage
697. a perfect lighthouse view
698. sleeping in. no agenda for the day.
699. a tent at the beach for shade on a hot sunny day
700. looking down the beach and being the only ones in sight
701. crashing waves, salty air, and ocean breezes…feeling the closeness of God
702. an evening stroll
703. finishing the book Water for Elephants (great book for those of you who haven’t read it)
704. being greeted by the light of a lighthouse each evening on our porch
705. a rainy day at the beach, a break from the heat
706. flying by the seat of our pants.
707. a cool shower to rinse off all the sand
708. ice cream for dessert
709. conversations that include what life will be like with Landon.
710. the lighthouses of NC
711. waves crashing at my toes
712. fishing in the sound, watching the sun drop
713. photography, the challenge of seeing the world more intimately
714. waking up to see the sunrise
715. the way I feel and see God closer when I’m at the coast, taking time to breath it in.
716. the beauty He has placed in this world for us to witness
717. finally coming home, seeing our puppy after a long week away from her!
718. the comforts of home, your own space.

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