Wednesday, November 21, 2012

thankful: being a registered nurse

For the past four years, I have had the opportunity to work as a registered nurse on an oncology unit at an amazing hospital. The majority of my patients have leukemia, although I see all types of cancer. The past four years have taught me more than I ever could have imagined about life, health, and who I am as a person. However, when Landon was born, I knew I couldn’t continue where I was for long. Life as a working mom is tough, and its so hard to give your all at a job that is so demanding, and then come home and feel 100% for your baby. My current job requires 12 hour shifts, a 45 minute commute both ways, holidays, and weekends. It was very apparent to me that I needed a change. I love oncology. I love my patients, and I love that I get to be there with them in their most difficult moments. That being said, it is emotionally, physically, and mentally draining to be in that environment on a daily basis. At 25 years old, I have been in the midst of situations that I would never dream of. I have dealt with death more than I care to. You know all those crazy tumors you see on Grey’s Anatomy? I have seen them in real life. Those situations exist in real life. But with each difficult moment, I have grown, and changed, and learned.

Tomorrow, Thanksgiving Day, is my last day at my current position. Monday morning bright and early, I will start a new job at the cancer center ten minutes from my home. I will get to drop off and pick up Landon each day instead of leaving while he is still asleep and coming home only to put him to bed. I will have half days on Friday, every weekend, and every single holiday at home with my family. And for that I am so incredibly thankful. I will get to see patients that do well with their diagnosis and go home at the end of the day, instead of to the palliative care unit. I will get to see patients who fight the disease, and live full lives. I look forward to the change, and I look forward to the break it will give me. If I have to be away from Landon for 40 hours a week, it needs to be in an environment that will allow me to come home at the end of the day and be ever present in my sons life, not exhausted.

While I am thankful for the new opportunity, I am so thankful for the job I am leaving. It is my first “adult” job. And in so many ways it is where I became an adult and grew up. It is where I learned everything I know about oncology and chemotherapy and bone marrow transplants. It is where I bonded with patients and held their hands, and that is something that I truly believe is a privilege. God has blessed me so greatly in allowing me to work on 9 Reynolds.  There are patients that I will never forget.

So this Thanksgiving, even though I will be working, I am so thankful and so blessed for the past four years and all they have brought.

1 comment:

  1. Amen lady!! I too will be working and am so THANKFUL to have a job and to get to provide care to kids at their worst time. Enjoy your last shift and congrats on new opportunities!!

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