Friday, February 14, 2014

and just like that, I fell off the wagon..

The Project 365 Wagon, that is. You may remember that at the beginning of the year I decided to give it a try. It seemed pretty easy,  a photo a day and post them all once a week to document a year in our life. I started out pretty strong, three weeks and 21 pictures and I was rolling along without a hitch. But then? I just stopped. I couldn’t do it one night, and then one night turned into several nights and here we are six weeks into 2014 and I haven’t posted in three weeks. But you know what? I’m okay with it. Sometimes I have to say no to certain things. Sometimes I can’t be perfect. Sometimes I need balance, and project 365 was something that didn’t make the cut.

This whole motherhood thing, its all about balance. As a nurse, I am taught to prioritize like crazy. I take care of the most critical situation first and leave the non-critical things for the ends. And I’m learning that life is just the same. I’m learning that my house will never be spotless, but it will be fully of memories and messes. I’m learning that I will not have perfectly Pinterest Valentine’s cards for Landon, but rather the store bought ones that work just as well and make him just as happy. I’m learning that I may have 3 loads of laundry on any given day that just sit in the basket waiting to be folded and put away. And its all okay.

Its okay because there are not enough hours in the day for me to love on my family and do everything else. Sometimes things have to get put on the back burner. If I have a choice of snuggling on the couch while it snows outside or having a few sacred quiet minutes to read a book, you better believe that I am going to do that over laundry or photography any day. Why? Because it is what my soul needs. My soul needs down time, my soul needs space to breath. Commitments, schedules, and to do lists just do not allow for the breathing room that I need so desperately. The past two snow days are the perfect example. My house is a disaster and there are twenty billion things I need to get done, but sledding, snowman making, and watching my son enjoy his first snow are my top priority. You know they saying “babies don’t keep?” Well, the same is true for two year olds. And I don’t want to miss a minute of it, so other things will just have to wait….


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