I’ve been pretty absent from this space lately. Its not because nothing has been going on, but I think more because I’ve just been processing things a lot. I’m like that. I tend to think on things for a long time before I really discuss them. We’ve been busy with life as usual, preschool and work, and enjoying the random 75 degree days here and there. We had an ice storm last week and a thunderstorm this week…insane right? Only in North Carolina in the spring. We’ve been busy preparing for the start of our house, but that of course doesn’t come without complications and setbacks. I knew when we started that there would be issues that would come up, things we would deal with, etc. And I was right- before we have even began we have already faced a lot of decisions.
Oddly enough we got some news on Ash Wednesday that was kind of a game changer. We are still going through with things, and we are still on track to begin in April- but not without a lot of patience, and some trust in the Lord for His timing and provision. It always amazes me that He makes his presence known exactly when we start getting over confident in ourselves. We start to think “we’ve got this” and He quickly reminds us that we, in fact do not have anything without Him.
So, back to Ash Wednesday when we got our news. Long story short, our loan would not be what we originally thought it would be and we had to make some financial choices to handle the change in plans. At first we were really upset, we thought that there was even a chance that we couldn’t continue on and build our home. But after a lot of research, asking questions, and prayer- we got things semi worked out and are back on track. I have always believed that things happen for reason, and I love that it happened right at this season of lent. This season is turning into one of patience, finding peace and rest in our Savior, and knowing that He is at work for us in ways we do not even understand.
The fact that we are dealing with these challenges during this Easter season makes it all a little sweeter for me. I have a strange peace that everything will work out exactly as it is supposed to and that we just need to give it to God and trust that He’s plotting our course. He’s ahead of us and right with us. He’s in the details of everything we are doing, and I have absolutely no reason to not let my heart fully rest in that truth, knowing that He’s got this.
I hope that this Easter, we can all find rest knowing that yes, sometimes we have to wait on the Lord, but in the end it is so so sweet. Our hope is in Him. Our hope is in His hand, and knowing full well that He’s caring for us in the most amazing of ways.
To go along with all this, I’ve been listening to Hillsong’s “Oceans” on repeat lately…it pretty much sums up where I’m at and where my heart is these past couple weeks as we dive headfirst into this adventure of homebuilding and Easter all together. If you haven’t heard it- go to Itunes now and thank me later :)
And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise
My soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine
Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me
You've never failed and You won't start now
Happy Friday :)